I am having a serious problem. I have been with this man from I was 14 years old. We got married four years ago.
I am 24 and he is 27 years old. He constantly accuses me of cheating, curses me, and tells me that he does not trust any woman, based on the way he saw his mother and other female relatives live.
He refuses to accept that our three-year-old daughter is his. But everyone, including his own family, says she is the image of him. I have never been with anyone else but him in my entire life. I am a Christian who fears God and wants to live for him.
What hurts me the most is that my parents and relatives told me not to get involved with him. Sometimes I wonder if God is punishing me for being disobedient. Sometimes I wonder if it is his level of education why he behaves this way, because he can barely read and write.
We both work, but he only wants me to save my money in a joint bank account. Since I got married, I don't know what it means to be happy. It's either I cry or we curse every other day.
He searches my vagina to see if he finds sperm or if it is bruised by another man. He has female friends that call him, but no male friends are allowed to call me or even to look at me, then he accuses me of having an affair with them.
He would call my workplace every day to see if I am at work or when I leave work.
I am deeply depressed, and all my friends are happy while I am sad. I often ask God why me. I want this relationship to work. But, I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
Please, give me your advice.