I am 19 years old and I have something to share with you. My mother used to send me to my grandparents very often, especially on Thursdays after school, and I did not go home until Sunday evening.
My mother used to buy clothes and sell. She and a man used to do it.
When I became 16, my mother used to tell me that I am an attractive girl and if I see any man that I like, she would allow me to go out with him. I told my grandmother what my mother said and she denied that she told me that.
She cursed me and told me that I am a fool to tell my grandmother what she told me.
My mother told me that the man she was doing the business with was 52 years old and she was with him just for his money, but she didn't want him. This man has a son who always moves around with him, and he likes me. He bought me a cell phone and a watch.
My mother asked me who bought me the cell phone, but she didn't ask about the watch. I told her it was the guy. She said that means that he likes me. She told me she can't watch me, but I need to be careful because she is with his father.
My mother opened her drawer and showed me where she kept condoms. She told me that if this guy ask me for sex and I agree, and he doesn't have any condoms, I can use what she has in the drawer. I didn't expect to hear that from her.
One weekend when she and the man went to Falmouth to sell stuff, this guy came by. He knew my mother was not there. I should have gone to stay with my grandparents, but by the time I was finished talking to him on the phone, he was right here.
He asked me for sex and I told him I never had sex before. He told me that he knew what to do to cause me not to have much pain. I asked him if he had a condom and he said he did not need that. He said that if I have some Vaseline or oil, that was good enough.
I went and pulled out a pack of the condoms my mother had. He wanted to know how come I had condoms. I explained to him that they belonged to my mother. He asked me for Vaseline and I gave him; he put it on the condom and we had painful sex. Then, he followed me to my grandparents' home.
He took away the rest of the condoms. My mother has never asked me for them. I don't know if she missed them. I am not feeling good knowing that this man is having sex with my mother and I am having sex with his son. He said we are not related so I shouldn't let that trouble me. But it is still troubling me, so I am asking you for your advice.