I have a slight problem of which I hope I can get some good advice on. I'm a 19-year-old Christian girl who would like to get married one day base on how my religion and belief is constructed.
During the time, I started to put my beliefs into practice. I have dated two guys and the both of them wanted to have sex with me, even though I told them I believe in marriage before secks.
Considering what happened, every time I think about getting married and having sex, it just turns me off.
I just can't see myself doing it. The
'Puss in a bag' thing just not working and definitely not my kind of luck.
On the other hand, sometimes I feel I have to be with someone. I don't ever want to be lonely.
My grandmother always tells me that when I get older and want to have secks, I should just protect my self and don't bother to live with a man.
Although her advice is against the word of God, my grandma always knows what's best.
Please, help me to think. Maybe I am thinking about secks too much, or that I am worried about the pain it will cause keeping a good man.